Answers. . .

I should say that Allah heard my prayer and today, i think i had the answer of your heart. I dream about you :'( You know what, I am soo in love you still, and i tried to hold your hand while telling you how much i still love you, longing for you. I am soooo happy to see you after these few years.

But, you push me away. I tried again and again, u still pushed me away. I am ssoooo sooo heartbroken.

 Suddenly i woke up and, it was just a dream. I know its  hint from HIM as i everyday asked for it. Even though it is a heartbreaking, I think i just need to move forward. The big question mark here is HOW?

Truly, I am so deeply sad. Like im grieving. Ya Allah, I am so devastated , please heal me.