Look Alike

It has been  few months i did not post anything in this blog. Im so sorry :( I was busy building up confidence in myself after the tragic incident. 

Anyway, referring to my "Post Title" .. I found his (my-ex) look alike in my own office. His name starts from A. So this A, look similar to my - ex who was and still in Australia. From his face until his action reminds me of my -ex , its just that he is way young from me. Not forgotten,  he was from Sabah too. Just imagine, he insist to company me outside while other friends went for Maghrib Prayer. Actually, that is not the first time he did that. At one time, he waited for me while i was crossing the road. God knows how long i waited for the traffic to be cleared but he stayed.

Im so happy to be A's friend but in deep, i cried. I can't deny that i really miss my-ex. And i know, it is such a waste to love someone that who won't love you back but i can't help it. Maybe i need more time or maybe i just need someone else as a replacement.

Hokkkkay, its so boring to talk and keep talking about my -ex. Lets talk about my career progress. I had tendered my resignation on 7th May 2012. My last day would probably be on 27th June 2012. I have to say, that i am very happy finally i got to move out from my current office. All the pressure, the stresses had waived from my head. Weahhoo way to go! Now, i don't really feel sad to leave (to leave the fabulous colleague and of course A) but i don't know about later.

My new job? Shhhh its still a secret. No one will know until i really really sit on the chair with my new desk. Hahahaha.. Until i see you guys again, do have faith in Life. Life would never be easy unless you keep the positive energy inside.

Loads of Love,

Lina

Never Ever

Meantime, i would never regret on those sweet things i have done for him. Its just that, i can't easily forget those. 

How could i ? 

You tell me how...

Never thought that I could hurt like this...    And i bet, you will never understand how does it feel like..  

I would need some time to heal. 

I would need some time to breathe without you.

I would need some time to believe that between both of us, are only history.

Because It is not easy ... 

P/S: Thanks for breaking my heart

Broken Heart

It has been a month since my heart was wrenched hardly. This time, it was doubled. I found out from a friend who can be trusted that My X-Prince Charming was actually single. He purposely declared the relationship so that I will stop hoping. When I heard that, this crystal heart of mine crashed again. How could he do this to me? I did ask him if I have a chance but he said he still not ready for commitment in the meantime. He said he want to finish his study before he settle down but see what he have done.

To me, he just should tell me the truth if I’m not his type. I hate being cheated and stabbed behind my back.  Well maybe I am too blinded by his sweet attitude & words..Maybe I am too excited when a Prince Charming treats me like a Princess so I forgot which one is which one.

Though my heart still bleeding, yet it is healing..The scars will remain. I should not trust him, I should just not trust anyone.. I just should listen to my Heart.. It is something to ponder, I guess. Whatever it is, please wish me to keep on going. I will need to take my own time to forget everything. Like said, Life has to move on. We live to fight. 

- Its Over -

Shocked? Surprised? Stunned? Feel those when you read the title?

By KunaFejm

So do i...

But it is true, it is the end of me and my prince charming. Officially he has declared he was in a relationship with a girl. How do i feel about that? I am so broken deep down inside until i feel like i don't wanna fall again. It is horrible. It is terrible. It is wayyyyy from what i am expecting.

Meantime, i try to get up slowly..Waking up from the nightmare. It is what it is.. No matter how much i pour the tears, he will never be mine if God is not willing for that.

Nevertheless, i stop hoping.. I stop wishing for moon and stars.. I am only the heartbroken T_T

Surprise Surprise Surprise !!!

Last week, i received a call from a friend , asking for me to become a tour guide for him and his family on the weekend. Without further hesitation, i agreed! But to show their appreciation to me, they offered to get me a pair of shoes. So they asked me for my size, and it is 7.

Waiting for the weekend to come, i feel so nervous. My heart beats faster than the norm. I have no idea why it is happening but i thought it is because of i really do not know how to go I-city (which is one of the places that they wish to go in conjunction of the school holiday).

Sooo, it is Saturday. My heart beats louder so i decided to recite Yassin after the Maghrib Prayer so that i can feel more calm and confident to show them how to go to the I-City. Around 9pm, his wife texted me to inform that they are already waiting for me downstairs so i quickly go and get them.

From the far, i can see my friend and his wife in the car. As i got into the car, they told me that the plan to go to Icity need to be cancelled due to certain reasons so they asked me if i got any better idea. I could not think much but i keep trying to give some idea. Until my friend asked how am i doing for twice, then suddenly his wife went our from the car (the wife is sitting on the driver seat). I turn right and saw my Prince Charming came in.

I am drop dead shocked cos i never ever thought that he is coming back from Australia. He came with Aiman, the lil boy who wanted to come to KL for a trip. I am terribly shocked and my mouth was zipped off for the whole night.

We went for a drink at the place we used to hang out during the Master Degree. He reminds me of those sweet memories that we used to have, together. Seriously i spent the night silently and only speak out when being asked. He seems not much differ now but he is more talkative and i can see his effort to make a conversation with me.

Again, im touched at that night. He gave a pair of silver bling bling shoes to me, and it is size 7. No wonder my friend asked for my size so that my prince charming can buy it for me. I fit in the shoes to my feet and was really happy that it is exactly the right size.

Just imagine, a prince presented a pair of glass shoes to Cinderella and she fit in.. Would i end up like Cinderella too? Live happily ever after with his prince charming?

To my prince charming, thank you so much for the surprise plan. I am touched, really i am... Frankly,I am so lucky to know you in my life and hope that we will be destined to be together. Only Allah can reward you for all the good things you have done to me. Again, even i am fat , u treated me so well.. So, u'll have my words; im going to lose weight for you.. Not drastically but until u come back for good..

I missed you, and will always miss you Prince Charming :-*

17.7.11

Happy Birthday ..Happy Birthday to me ^.^

I should be happy as i have turned 24 today.. I am happy, celebrating my Birthday with family, besties & love.. However, this year has been a bit different cos its a bit bitter to me.. Not as what i wishes for.

What i mean is, my prince charming need to fly away, abroad on my Birthday.. I know, he left for a good reason and i think i shall be happy for him. He is the first man that caused me to wake up sooo early, before the sun rise...to drive to a place which i myself unsure of the route..and to hide all the pain and sorrow just inside me...However, i know that you knew..

Well, i woke up at 5.45am and after perform my subuh prayer i get dressed. Btw, thanks Shuky again..for waking me up..no words can describe how much i love you! I am so confused on what i should wearing but it is gonna take so much time baybeh to think.. i just grabbed a black dress and whatever it takes to make me look "thin". Not forgotten, pink stiletto (which also a birthday present) from my lovely sis..

We drove all the way to KLIA even we missed out the junction etc.. Making U-turn like thousands time but we laughed together. After entering MEX highway, Shuky and i feel a bit relaxed but deep inside im scared if we cant make it on time. (Hey prince charming, i coming ..)..

Im not sure what time we landed on KLIA but i can assure you that we made it, on time! Believe it or not, i didn't call him or even his foster brother .. Me n Shuky just keep searching, of course but guts feeling..Alhamdulillah, i found him in less 10mins.. Just imagine, i managed to meet him in hundreds of crowds. Only God knows how fast my heart skips.. Or did my heart skips a beat?

Im glad finally i met him.. After he finished his chat with some friends, he walked me to the seat while singing birthday song! (U know i was so drifted away when u sang that, prince charming)...But i pretend not to hear that cos i know i'l cry if look up.. ( owhh how much im gonna miss u like now T___T)

To be Continue......

*** I Miss You, Prince Charming.. So Much!!!