The Proposal

I got the second proposal on 9th December 2013, but I have no idea at all. Whether to say Yes or to oppose. I just let his question hanging in the air because I am not sure if I would ever wanted to

1) Give up my Job here

2) Start over in Brunei, from scratch

and take all the risk .....

I wanted to say Yes. I like him so much. I want be his, forever. I would want to venture a new life with him. 

Yes Yes Yesssss!!!

But, i have few things in mind. Can he

1) Accept me for who i am... I am penniless, not like him. My family is just moderate not like his.

TBC....... 

Sampai hati....

Sampai hati.... They never think of my heart. 

Sampai hati.... 

Sampai hati......

Sampai hati....

Sampai hati.... They never think that i want to be happy as well...

And yes, finally its over

Few days ago, i stalk your fb account. I saw your updates, photo and status saying this is your ribs whatever bla bla. So i guess i should have just let you go since it is crystal clear message.

Thank you so much for tearing my heart into pieces until i could never pick and build it up again.

Answers. . .

I should say that Allah heard my prayer and today, i think i had the answer of your heart. I dream about you :'( You know what, I am soo in love you still, and i tried to hold your hand while telling you how much i still love you, longing for you. I am soooo happy to see you after these few years.

But, you push me away. I tried again and again, u still pushed me away. I am ssoooo sooo heartbroken.

 Suddenly i woke up and, it was just a dream. I know its  hint from HIM as i everyday asked for it. Even though it is a heartbreaking, I think i just need to move forward. The big question mark here is HOW?

Truly, I am so deeply sad. Like im grieving. Ya Allah, I am so devastated , please heal me. 

Two years and still counting....

I still can remember how, I on this day... Can't sleep well because im counting down to let you go. Maybe for you today is nothing but for me, it is the hardest day that i need to face through. However, i had pulled it through. Yes, because im still breathing writing this post.

Two years already, babe. I never lose hope on you but i have learned how to keep going even though it hurts as much as no one can imagine.

Thank you for the most wonderful years we spent together. Thank you for making me feel so special. Thank you for giving me the wrong signals so i hurt yet i live to put all the broken pieces back into shape.

Thank you,

Kenapa pegang tangan saya kalau awak tak suka sayaaa...

Saya mimpi awak tadi... Kita terjumpa di satu tempat yg saya pun tak pasti kat mana.. Lepas tuuu, saya cuba untuk tidak pedulikan awak. Saya pura2 xnampak awak kat situ...

Tapi... masa saya nak balik..awak minta izin dgn mak saya untuk bercakap dgn saya. Jadi kita keluar makan malam tu bersama2...Macam selalu, kita borak2 tapi rasa janggal sebab dah lama xkeluar bersama...Sebab saya pura2 tiada apa2 yang berlaku antara kita.

Tiba2 awak pegang tangan saya...dan pandang mata saya serta awak cakap awak nak tanya saya sesuatu...
Saya keliru.... awak kan dah tolak saya semenjak awak pergi.. Oh saya lupa nak beritahu... awak nampak handsome sangat bila awak pakai baju hitam malam tu... Senyuman awak memang tak pernah lekang malam tu..

Sayaaaa....bahagia sgt2 masa tu ...

I miss you

Waking up late at night, crying over you...While Listening to those heartbroken songs... I know, im such a fool.. For loving someone that dont love me back.
The tears resemble how bad the damage to my heart is...
I wish......for you to never change... I wish the old you..

Who will always take me out...for movie...for good food... for karaoke..
Who bought me bangles to surprise me....

I miss you..

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