If i were to look back

If i were to look back, a year ago, on the same date.. I have posted that i went to KLIA on this date to send him off.  So today, when i think back.. I feel like an idiot . Heheehehe well i should not go on that day and i just should sleep like a baby.

I posted this kind of post because he dont seems like care about my Birthday.

If last year, he sang a song to me but this year, not even a simple wish from him.

If last year, i posted a birthday card to Australia on his birthday... But on my birthday this year, there is nothing for me from him.

It hurts so much. It hurts deeply.

I dont want to take it positively, I dont want to be matured this time.

I wanna think it my way.

How could he.......

Need A Break

I feel like almost giving up.. Im tired and i need a break. I need a break from all the responsibles i had now. I just wanna be normal. Isn't it enough im suffering in every inches of my life. Can't i be happy like others? Can't i enjoy my young life now like my other friends? Without have to worry about everything :'( To be frank, I always, always envy of them. They have a happy life, easy way of living, simple yet just nice.

I've been complaining about my life lately. It seems like i never appreciate what i have gone through all this while. I don't mean to but somehow i want to let it out. I don't want to keep it to myself anymore. Im only  human, i can't bear all the pain alone. I know, HE is with me all the time. But it too crucial for me, a young girl (not yet a woman).. Who fight so hard to live ...

Sobs sobs.. How i wish someone could understand how i feel.