It took some courage ....

Well it took some courage from me, for me to confront my family about i wanna get married... and it doesnt go smooth as i wish.. WHY it always gotta be me to be seems as the most not important person here.


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Why oh why.....

Sangat Tak Faham

Saya tak fahamlah kenapa mesti saya ini ibarat kambing hitam dalam keluarga. Kenapa, orang tak pernah anggap saya penting dalam kehidupan mereka. Apabila membuat keputusan, apabila ingin melakukan sesuatu pastinya saya disisihkan.

Apa, tidak cukup lagi ke pengorbanan yang saya lakukan selama ini? Bukan mengungkit tapi kadang2 teringin rasa diri ini dihargai. What happened yesterday and today was really really hurt my feeling.

Just imagine when you are trying to talk about you yourself, people dont even bother to listen. Im trying hard at that time, for sure still people change the subject. The feeling is like you were hit by a trailer.

Ya Allah, tolong laaa... hug my heart ni..Wrap my heart with tenderness.... Apa lagi selepas ni? Seriously im giving up.... 

The Proposal

I got the second proposal on 9th December 2013, but I have no idea at all. Whether to say Yes or to oppose. I just let his question hanging in the air because I am not sure if I would ever wanted to

1) Give up my Job here

2) Start over in Brunei, from scratch

and take all the risk .....

I wanted to say Yes. I like him so much. I want be his, forever. I would want to venture a new life with him. 

Yes Yes Yesssss!!!

But, i have few things in mind. Can he

1) Accept me for who i am... I am penniless, not like him. My family is just moderate not like his.

TBC.......