Day- I don't know

I never thought that my heart will be shattered into pieces like now. The excruciating pain that no one can imagine. 

But I believe, I trust...

For what had happened, Allah is the best planner. Just right after the divorce, Government has announced MCO which you are not allow to leave home for 3 months. For the past 3 months, I have been staying with at a new place surrounded by my family. It is the indescribable feeling. I wanted to cry out loud, but I can't. I don't want them to see me as a weak person. I don't have tissue so I can't cry too. 

During the MCO too, I don't have to work. Coincidentally, I was on my sabbatical leave. I wish to finish up my PhD, but the divorce took place. How heartbroken I can be ya? 

Soon, I discovered "I'll never love again"....by Lady Gaga

I cried my heart out in shower. 

I don't want to give the better part of me to anybody else but you. 

Don't want to give my heart away to another stranger.

I won't let the sunlight in..

Genap 3 bulan..

Seperti yang dikatakan, genaplah 3 bulan bermaksud habis juga la tempoh eddah ku..

Juga bermaksud....I am officially a divorcee.

Heavy heart.. Apakah dugaan ini.

Thank you for everything......

That day

I still remember that day,

2nd March 2020 is the day I ended my 4 years marriage. Honestly, my heart shattered. You being you, blaming me for everything. I'm always your punching bag.
I can still remember the excruciating pain in my chest few days after the event. I woke up with a heavy head, dizzy eyes the next morning.

Days before that day, I can't eat. Everything I bite, it tastes bitter.

Few days after that day, I cried out loud while I went through my stuff and captured something yours. I don't know what went wrong but I anggap jodoh kita tak panjang.

The excruciating pain that never I have imagined in my life....

Cinta tak selalunya Indah

When you think that settling down will make you happy...Think again..